Secrets

Kinda makes you wonder...
If they would keep simple things a secret what else would they keep from you.
Is omission the same as lying?

Things not said...

There are those things that I don't want him to know. Not that I'm afraid to tell him, but because I'm afraid of what he might think of me. Of course I would think that I know him well enough to say he wouldn't leave me for my past. It's just that that person that I was... The things that they made me do. The things I allowed to them to do. How could he see me the same again after it all? Wouldn't he just be consumed by the anger of what these people did. ..But I'm stronger than I was before. Those things of the past no longer have a place in my new life. He has shown me that I don't have to suffer to feel like I'm loved. The greatest thing about him is that he takes me for who I am. Yes I might be damaged but I'm rebuilding myself and I'm even better than I was before.
I know that I will have to tell him all of these things eventually. I can't keep it from him forever, because I need him to know that he saved me too. Who knows where I would have been if it wasn't for him. I was heading down this path that could only have led me too more pain, more disappointments in myself. Sometimes I wish that I could completely forget about it all. All of those things that started all those years ago, that caused me to fall deeper down the rabbit hole. So I'm on the road to recovery now and I'm happier than ever...If I had to go through all of this again to be with him I would.

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